Monday, December 9, 2013 / 10:43 PM
yesterday was a really happening day at home because my sister got married.
time passed really quickly, i still remember telling my sister to press on because she got stressed out at work and look forward to her wedding day 90 plus days later.
the days soon became to single digit from double digit.
and BAM, wedding day.
all i could say is the whole day felt so surreal.
but i'm glad it's was smooth even though there were a few hiccups here and there.
it feels/sounds silly but i was really really sad yesterday.
i know it's supposed to be a joyous day to me because it's as though my sister has really grown up and is entering a new phase of life where she would be blissful.
and obviously i know that it's not as if my sister will never come back home.
but it just felt as if i am going to lose my sister because i know she won't be coming home to sleep and i know that from now onwards i will have to lock the door when only four people have come home.
basically, it's the lack of her presence but i am really happy for her.
after so long, she finally found that one person that complements her, accepts her and loves her.
still remember when i was younger, when i wasn't able to sleep, i would wake her up and ask her "how i cannot sleep"
and she would be so annoyed because i woke her up from her sleep just to ask her what to do.
i also had this weird thing where i kick when i sleep when i was younger, and my poor sister would have to get kicked by me.
she was also the one who brought me to my first movie, bought me my first watch(but i lost it during the first week i had them, ..) and many other things which i can't remember at the moment.
i am really grateful that i have her as my sister even though we don't talk much since our age gap is sooooo huge.
but even so, i know she still cares about me because when i told her about my break up, all she said was "but he never bully you right?"
it might not mean much but i felt so loved at that very moment even though there isn't any "love" word in that sentence.
but i think nobody's going to miss her more than my parents.
she's like a gem to them(hey me and my brother are also gems too), always putting my parents ahead of everything.
it is going to take awhile for me to get used to the fact that my sister has moved out.
how i wish i could give her a big massive bear hug(LOL) now.
and it sucks soooo bad knowing that i have to go through this once again when my brother gets married.